I am in blues today

I have those days like the Tour De Cure day when l think that diabetes may actually be a good thing. And then I have some days when everything that could go wrong goes wrong and I feel like diabetes was the worst thing that ever happened to me. Last three days definitely belonged to the latter category. Before I talk about my awful weekend, some updates: I got a call from my endocrinologist Friday evening about my test results. He told me that my HbA1c had gone down to 6.1 (yayyy!!), TSH was good at 2.3 (I think) but C-peptide was down at 0.5. What that means in plain English is that my pancreas is not producing much (or any) insulin of its own now but I am still maintaining good blood sugar levels. I knew it was going to happen one day or another, so, that was not a shocker at all. I am fully reliant on externally injected insulin now.

So, the same evening, I somehow get away from work (actually, I just ran away for one evening! couldn’t take it anymore!) and went out with friends – ate out, had cheesecake for dessert. My blood sugar after a few hours – 257. I go to sleep, wake up with 177. I inject lantus, drink just a glass of milk for breakfast and keep testing my blood sugar for next 5 hours – 158, 147. The same trend of eating less and high blood sugar continues for the rest of the day. Today, I inject the same 12 units of lantus again and eat 2 slices of bread in the morning at 1030. I dont eat a thing for 4 hours after that and my blood sugar goes up to 244 (after 4 hours!).

Now, my cause of frustration was not just my blood sugar but also the effect it was having on my weekend. It was an awesome weekend and I had decided to work through the whole of it to catch up on some stuff. But, high blood sugar and complicated programming do not go well together. I was feeling really crappy all through the weekend and couldn’t sleep well last night. Because I was feeling crappy, I couldn’t work as well as I should have, and thus was feeling even worse. So, all in all, it was a really really crappy weekend.

As far as my blood sugars are concerned, I think my lantus was the culprit. It had gone bad or something and wasn’t working at all. I took out another pen and it looks like it is working fine. It’s too early to judge but I’ll find out for sure by tomorrow. Gotta try to get some sleep now.

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